Finally the departure is here

Tomorrow is his last day here in Wangsa. I won be seeing him anymore after this...I've been trying so hard to keep the emotions down. I don't know can I hold anymore tomorrow..If I listen to those sad and emotional songs I guess the tears will just flow down like an opened pipe..Since I've got nothing to do...I think I should just type out the feelings here than telling him. It's not easy to tell it out rite? Just write it out will be so much easier...

I've got to go through another year plus here alone without him. I don't know how that time will be actually. Unlike the time when he would be just in Ipoh and I was in KL, this time the departure will be like forever. Although the time for his UK leave is not here but can feel that he's leaving so so so soon. Even though for this time's departure back to Ipoh, I feel like it's just so soon. Previously I kept mentioning to him I can't stand it and I don't know how I will be that time here alone. If I need help, need company or need to talk to people, or if I got into any trouble, he won't be there anymore to help me or to keep me company. Everything also need to do alone and be on my own. Sob....='(....

The time difference will be 8 hours...I wonder do we have the chance to keep in touch. This long distance relationship can it still be maintained??? I've got no confident with myself...Can we maintain it???? I hope can...I hope I won breakdown that time...

Left another day only...I'm just speechless because it's really alot to say but it can't come out from my mouth...

I wanna say...pls dun leave....but it's just too selfish to say that....so...just keep it hidden in the heart......

p/s: I love u...take good care of urself in UK k?