I've Woke Up!

Haha..after yest, i opened up my eyes di. I keep demanding things from him, and keep making him feel bad. Haiz. Not tat I want to say all is my fault. I just rather it's my fault then won't breakup le. I tell u wen we meet up. The questions, I already asked myself since last time wen we first faced problem. So till now, wen I read the ques, I at first was shocked and duno y you ask. But now I noe, its because I make things till as if I cant stand u as my bf. This point I will tell u nxt time. I hope u too ask those ques to yourself. We try solve it together, side by side.. Yes...here r some pictures of extrememly delicious cheese cakes!..Looks nice? Yes..

Good morning people. Yesterday was a little emotional. Guess my fren said my EQ low is true. Haha...and IQ also low. Wat to do I'm just a normal girl with no special power. Haha. Rite? LAter exam I guess won get any wish from him di. Mayb start hate me. Yesterday I watched a movie. And the main actor, he had another lover outside when he's married. He's not only telling the wife lies after lies, but he never serious to win her bck. Gave me an impression as if he doing it to layan the wife a little. Felt as if me. People just layan layan abit wif me..but whether sincere or serious or not I duno. People just dunund me. Why people can c the blame to others?I might be tat way too I guess. But now, I dun und y?Y people never try to und y I tat way, y I can be that emotional?

Again is my fault

It will always be on me

No matter wat I said or do

It will be giving or creating the prob

Human r very fragile and weak

At one moment we might feel hapi and on top of the world

The next moment we can be extremely sad and hurt

But watever feelings we have

Should we hide or tell it?

Tell is good or not?

Feeling tat way is good or bad?

Just because want to c him I became a selfish person

Tats wat he view me

Very disappointed

Its my fault

Why I always depend so much on him?

Y? Y?

See..It's your own fault

Yea padan muka!

Haiz...exam 2ml..wonder can do well like today

Anyway it's my own fault

Now, shouldn't care much

Shouldn't say sori

I giv in too much di

People just like dun reali care

And might take me for granted

Knowing me not hapi

But didn't take any action to cheer me up

Turn the things as if my fault

Mayb

I duno

No feelings to say anything

Anymore

Tired

Reali tired!!!

Cherish The Weekend

This weekend I spent my time at bf's house. I study there, while waiting for him bck. Then wen stop study would buy dinner and wait for him to cm bck. So sweet le. I would be waiting like a good wife..Haha...Am I? ***wink***I think I am =)...But then Friday nite he sudd sick di. Sudd fever. Worry like hell. Forced him took med and see doc. Luckily his fever went down and now much more better. But then today is my turn to b sick. This morning I woke up wif a terrible flu. And bf was so worried. Kept checking my body temperature. Saying I like fever lo. I felt so touched that he cares so much for me. As how I care for him. Hang fuk lo! Today I didn't study much. I can say I dun reali wan to worry much. Study di ok. No nid nervous or wat. Just do my best lo. And he was nice enuf to bring me out relax, play games and had short date in Jusco. So I enjoyed alot. But then my flu getting worse now. Hope 2ml wil be fine le. I hope so. But today b4 he sent me off, he sang a song while hugging me...Nothing's gonna change my love for u!! I feel so touched, even til now. Felt so happi and cherished. To those who in relationship, cherish the one wif u. Mayb they wil be the oni one for u. Cherish it so that won regret later. I must cherish my time wif him..and cherish him because he gave me alot of things..and mean so much to me! I love u loukong...Thk u for everything

Hate it!!!

Yerrrr!! Hate it. Why exam take so long time to finish? Why need 3 weeks instead of 2 weeks???? Why Why Why??? Hate it!!! Like struggling to finish. I just feel so terrible that things run so slowly. So sickening lo. Reali like wan die. Everyday read read read and read. U noe how boring it is? Yes it is damn boring. To all my coursemate reading this I'm sure you all feel the same way especially if u r at KT! I one day also wan die di. So damn bored. For real for sure! Rather die than staying there study whole day. No other activities but that!!! I miss shopping mall and bowling and movie!!!

Two More Weeks To Go

Oh exam goin end soon. Reali can't wait for it to end. Suffereing here. Everytime exam also suffer alot. Haiz. Worry so much for that stupid Biochem and Microb lo. Haiz..Like no confident oni. But cant do anything. Hope no more unexpected again le. So sked of crazy unexpected questions di. Haha..Good Luck to MYSELF!

Bored!

I feel so damn bored so wanna drop smth here so that can ease a bit of the boringness. Wahaha. Em think back, I feel that time reali flies. At first I was just newly entered into UKM and now, the first year is ending soon. I duno whether I reali enjoyed my uni life or not. I dunno whether I reali like the life this way or wat. Em..I can say I just hold on, and continue to move on with my life. I got a feeling that the coming years will not attached so much to my frens and coursemate. Since I'm staying far away and alone from my coursemates I guess ppl dun even wanna care for me. Actually I dun mind people dun noe or care for me. Well life is like that. No one is real good frens until they show their heart in the friendship. Well just a few here. Perhaps others I'm not close to anyone yet. Maybe. But then I think if we meant to be frens wif ppl around us, then we will eventually .No nid to rush or think so much. Rite? everything just let it cm. Let it takes its place. Future I reali dunno. I just sked that I dun enjoy my time nxt time. How? Haiz Duno le

Boring Studying Whole Day

Yesterday I had an extrememly boring day. I guess today will be the same as well. Yesterday woke up bout 6am, then started studying and had breakfast while watching Gem of Life. Em whole day the part I enjoyed most was watching movie while eating. Actually is not healthy but I dun care. Oh God. Staying in KT studying is the worst thing ever here. Damn BORED whole day. Read read read read all the time. And especially reading that damn BIOCHEM!!! Very very very bored ka...So I hope faster end le...Hehe...I hugged him wen feel bored. So cute..

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Unlucky day

Today is an unlucky day I hope not the cming days ahead of me. I always thought I've prepared. Well yes I've prepared, but I was not prepared for the unexpected. I never expect such crazy questions would cm out in exam. Alot I dunno how to answer. Objective I just simply shoot. Essays, haiz, one of it totally lost 10 marks. Haiz. Bad bad bad luck today!

Ipoh..I'll b BACK soon!!!

Yummy Tuna!

Mashed Eggs wif Mayo!

My potato, carrot, vege and fruit salad

Brandon n Dad..So loving rite?

Bro n I..Tat pudding is nice

Sushi cming to me!

Yummy sushi!

I went to Ipoh for my study week. Well actually I enjoyed my time wif my family and frens. Especially wif my siblings, it was so fun. I miss them now. Well, being at home is so...warm...and happy. Because I get to talk to family and realized that family is very important. Studies also not tat important. Coz I didn't reali study much. Just normal study..never rush and never stress. Well, my brothers were there do destress me..Hehe..Miss HOME!!! But I'll be back soon!!!!

Going bck Home SOON!!!

Today is Wednesday..I'll be going home on Friday...Exam soon...But I'll study hard. I will ganbateh..I will always! I dunwan make ppl around me worry I dunwan loukong worry for me...I wil ganbateh!

JPD CourseNite at Golden Horse Hotel

Wif flowers and Horse!

Susan n Me

Susan, Me, YeeLing

KehLen, Me, SiewFen n Petrina

Beautiful flowers..Steal from others le

KehLen n Me behind Horse Statue

Teddy Bear..Cute leh?

Dr Poh and her beloved Mentees!

Me n Kehlen again!

I think tis pic nice!

Well..Not in real good mood. But the dinner was nice. The place. The food. And crazy taking pictures. Just hate it wen got no place for me to sit. Ish. But I enjoy also..

Unbelieveable

It's already more than a year I got myself into a relationship wif him. Not to say short and not to say long. Suddenly feel like writing smth in my blog. There were times when we were like almost breakup..just over small small issue. But then, slowly I guess we both understand that we reali dunwan it to end. That's why until now we still together and we got closer now. Understand and support each other. Just like yesterday. My speech was sucks and I reali feel like crying and hope that he was there. That time I put in alot of effort to do my speech and even forget to study. But then the sppech was not only overtime but it was sucks and too informative. At first I was excited that I felt I did a good slide and speech. I never expect that I was not convincing at all. So in the end I felt so disappointed. Wanted to cry. wanted to tell people how I felt. Wanted him to listen to me. But he was working. At night, he called. Asked how I was. I said I speechless. Coz I think I very stupid. I redo my speech the whole evening and then, in the end, after saved, i resaved the old slides to the new one. In the end I did it all over again. I felt so stupid. The moment he called asked bout me, I felt speechless and dumb. But he was different from last time. Yesterday his tone was soft and gentle, asking me to tell him wat happened. That somehow calmed me down. Slowly better. Today he asked again how am I..He've changed. To more caring towards me.And support me alot. Kept giving me encouragement to go on...to do better. He even volunteered to listen to my speech tomolo..Ask me to practice infront of him. I felt so touched...Thks for support darling..Thks alot!

Happy Anniversary

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Happy 1 year and 10 months Anniversary Darling...I Love You!

2nd Sem of First Year goin to END soon!

My second sem goin to end soon. Time flies le. Really fast. Em a little happy and a little sad bout it. Happy because I can b senior soon can go further in my course durations but then sad because the cming year wil be tougher and worse than first year. So? Bad or good? I think both also included. Well, lately emotionally always not balanced. Sometimes can b very hapi n smtimes can b very moody, without noeing the exact reason for it. Hormone imbalance perhaps? Oh gosh how old stil imbalance? Crazy me. Haha...Well last week til now I was thinking that I'm so great can help out a fren but then in the end I was told that I wasn't helping out at all. I was so pissed and damn angry that as if I was so busybody bout other ppl's stuff. Well, I dunwan mention bout it di just hope that fren can wake up le one day. Pity le....I so moody til duno wat to write di...now listening to a malay song..Letto's Ruang Rindu. This song I long time didn't hear di. Last time at Matriks I used to listen everynite when I missing bf. There was once I listened to it til cried out. That time I remembered that it was months since I last met him so miss alot til couldnt control my emotions. Listen to it till cry. But that song reali great..Try listen le...