Exam soon

Well exam is just around the corner. Its in 3 weeks time including this week. But then this cming 2 weeks is so damn packed le. Class everyday til 5pm. Tiring. Plus my speech mock is this Friday. Ish nid to get prepared le. So sked. My speech is so long and I got no idea whether I can memorize everything by Thurs. I can do it! Ish. LaiPeng..work harder..push urself further in front. Do better than last time, k?..Yes yes I'll do better this time..I wil b more confident..Promise! I think giving myself such positive thinking and boost wil b useful and help me alot. I hope those facing prob can overcome their problem. By giving more confident and think positive! Ok? Ganbateh Everyone!

Yesterday Had College's Makan Malam

Lee Fang, Me, Cher Linn

Enlarge this Pic..Surely funny..c the Guy at the corner?

This pic I love most..Look Thin di!!

JPD girls..All nutri except ME!!!

William, Me, Kehlen

KehLen, Sandra, Me

Debate Team of UKM..except me

Oh...so DAMN BORED yest! The function at first was quite nice. But then as time passed, I was getting more annoyed coz my stomach was growling, than, then stupid M came and said our table was reserved for them, which til now we dunno whether it's true or not. Ish. They kept saying it was reserved for them but seriously there was no notice or sign saying so. But still we left coz we dunwan to create prblems wif them. Cis!..Then we all moved to a further place behind..ermm..to be exact, it was the the last row of tables from the stage. Haiz..cant c anything. And the food..sucks..M food again. Haiz...the most enjoying part was taking pic. Oh I saw myself like so thin do. So hapi. And..I was damn hapi when bf said, he actualli loves me alot and deeper compared to last time...I'll never forget it..Sweet? Haha..Yes it is!

Haha..Cooked Again Le

Onion Egg

Fried chicken fillet

Yummy?? Yes..I so hungry now!! But waiting for bf cm bck to eat together le. Ngek ngek. Oo..cooking is my hobby le i think since last time I've enjoyed cooking so much!!! O..I hope u guys too because cooking gives such great satisfaction especially those ate say it is good. Haha..

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....... As time passed.....I kept thinking the same question. I duno what I want. What I expect in a relationship? Seriously I like know what I want. But then when he pointed it out, I duno wat to say or answer. Am I expecting too much? Am I doing the right thing? Was I too over even from the begining? My dream guy is very simple actually. Last time I used to crush on cute and charming guys..I judged from appearance. Even towards him. He is handsome to me. And the first time I saw him I fell in love at first sight wif him. At first I thought it was puppy love or crush. But then as time passed, I found that he's the one I love and want to be with and continue for a serious relationship. Althought far away, we stil held on to each other and love so much. Slowly, the hot n passionate feelings is not so deep di. I personally think is not from me...but I feel is from him. Beginning of relationship is very sweet and he was so romantic, and couldn't stop confessing. It was smth very sweet for every lovers or couples. I myself was so blinded with those sweet endearments. Slowly and slowly, I need more from him. I want him to continue giving me the warmth and promises. And assurence and confidence from him. I want to noe how much he appreciate me as a gf, how much he wanted to b wif me. Although it's almost 2 years together and ppl said 'lou fu lou chai' no nid so 'yuk ma'. But to me, this is the assurence that I nid. Although I trust him, I stil hope to get same warmth I'm giving him. The coldness made me feel so insecure, feel not needed. To him, this is not a problem at all. And might feel so stressed bcoz he feels that he loves me alot do alot but I still not satisfied. Is it my prob? I duno. First I thought it was his..but slowly..I think is mine. Or perhaps I shouldnt even have a lover? I dun deserve to be loved at all since I'm not even being a good, tolerate and understanding gf...Always harp on little things like, neglecting me..never msg or call me, rather play games than chatting wif me. This sounds silly rite? TO guys, I might be reali annoying and ma fan. Rite? I am I think. I guess I'm too hard to be anyone's gf. And I so sked that he might think I'm not the right one. I can't avoid from thinking -ve bout our relationship. I begining to feel insecure di. I feel scared and lost. Duno wat to do. Seems like no problem, there is I think. And I duno wat prob. I want to discuss but then...there is no time. There is no space for it. He cant find time for it. And no mood for it. So..how? I reali no idea how..is it my fault for wanting him to giv me bck the secured feeling? All I want from him is his openess. I wan him open up wif me. Open his feeling to me. Make the first move to cherish and appreciate me...

Tiring day

Lately so many things to manage. Going crazy soon. Haha..studies, then cming public speech. This sem goin to end soon. So fast wil go to 2nd year. Oh I cant believe it. Today tired le. Went to Petaling Street. Wanted to buy a shirt so much but since its RM26.90 I didn't buy di. Feel I like wasting money oni le.Haha. So I better keep the money until I need to buy I buy.Haha. Weird person la me. People always say so. And I admit. Ok continue my work. Tired! T________T

Learnt New Things

Well people, today I've learnt a lot regarding contaminants in food. Since I'm a dietetic student, so I hope can share the info I got today wif my beloved readers. Haha..Not just bout gradma stories keh me. Hehe..got some information also keh..

Contaminants:....r divided into 6 different types and groups

1) Heavy Metals

• In added into food indirectly.
• Example of case is in Indonesia where they use disposed water to water plants, causing high levels of contaminants in vegetables.
• Mercury @ Methylmercury- High toxic and can affect Central nervous system(brain, spinal cord and nerves)..The biggest issue is that Mercury found in fishes as the sea is polluted by mercury from industries.
• Cadmium- Affects the kidney most. This heavy metal has no benefit to body. Thus high level is dangerous to human. Can be found in cigerrate. So smokers..try to stop smoking so that Cadmium is free from u!

2) PCB and PBB

• Polychlorinated biphenyl (PCB)- Heat transter liquid used in transformer or capasitor, non degradeable and no bacteria can degrade it. It can lower the IQ of newborn babies if consumed alot by mother. PCB can be transformed to Dioksin (TCDD) which is highly toxic to us. Dioksin can cause canser and mostly disoksin can be released thru incinerator [ the garbage disposal area]
• Polybrominated biphenyl (PBB)- The effects of PBB is almost same as PCB. It's highly toxic and non degradeable. Same as the PCB, it stays permenantly in human body fat. The half life takes bout 7-11 years, meaning, the PCB n PBB take tat long to divide in half of its size

3) Chlorinated Naftalene

• Is naftalene treated with chlorin
• Can kill cows..imagine if we ate it?? We might end uo like the cow

4) Radionuclide

• Released thru radioactive rays like X-rays, alpha, beta and gamma rays
• Can contaminate water once is absorbed thru the surface
• It can also enter to the ground water and highly consumed amount can be cancerous oh

5) Carsinogen in smoked food

• Smokes food like bacon, smoked fish n fruits hav high levels of hidrocarbon aromatic polycyclic. This compund is cancerous.

6) Pesticides and Herbicides

• Example is DTT- pesticide organochlorin
• DTT is harmful as it cannot be degraded

I hope these facts can b useful to everyone. Hope wil guide u to eat healthyly lo! Enjoy

Unexplainable Feeling

Today, my feelings were..so..unexplainable. I duno y. Somehow I actually feel so excited that this cming weekend I'll be able to meet up wif bf and I thought till sun nite. Mainly because the cming weekends are so near to exam. I feel should focus more n stay at KT. But then, I feel like meeting him longer le. Wen got to noe that sun having college dinner felt like not goin. But then ppl said we paid early of the year in our skul fees. So its like better go. But I so em seh tak him. Dunwan go bck so early le..Sob2..plus nxt week another dinner on sat. That one duno can meet him or not le.Sob2 Oh I seriously duno how. Plus so many things goin on lately I felt so tired and annoyed to go for stupid functions. I rather just stay at his place n study do my things. Rather than wasting time n money on unnecessary things..Help me!!!

Lovely Weekend

Weekend was great people. Haha...Actually I duno y great le. Felt happy lo. Especially past few days. Friday onwards I cooked dinner for bf, wait for him home and had dinner together. That feeling is...hard to describe le..Reali hard. Just feel so hapi taking care of sm1 I love. Just now a fren told me he broke up wif his gf. I felt sad too and worry coz this seemed to affect him alot. Pity him so much. Haiz. I hope he's fine

Lab...FUN tasting Different Cheeses

My Fried Egg

Today the most interesting part of the day is the PPM lab. Today get to try different types of cheeses. Ok..let me share my knowledge with those who love cheese but duno bout the differences of cheeses. Ok..The first pic is..my fried egg. C the well-shaped structure? Haha..Proved that my skill is ok lo. Wahaha..SS la me..Syok sendiri!

Edam Cheese

Ok..Next is the Edam cheese. This cheese is very solid in the sense that wen we bite it, the mouthfeel we will get is that the cheese hard, not easy to melt in out mouth. It's salty and not very strong smell or taste.

Extra Cheddar Cheese

Next, the Extra Cheddar Cheese. This cheese harded compared to Cheddar cheese. Its more salty and stronger flavour and aroma compared to Cheddar.

Cheddar Cheese

Then, the Cheddar Cheese. Well, Cheddar is the softer Extra Cheddar Cheese. It's salty and less flavour and aroma compared to Extra Cheddar Cheese. It has milky flourful dan melts once in our mouth. Yummy.

Cheese Spread

The Spread Cheese. Like cream only. White in colour, soft and creamy texture. It tastes the best because it is soft. not salty and milky flavour. Its soft texture make it best for cakes and bread spread

Blue Cheese..C the blackish colour? It's mold..or..'kulat' lo!

Lastly, the Blue Cheese. I hate most. Haha. This cheese still having live molds or fungus on it. That's why we can c the greenish black spots on the cheese. Wen tasted, YUCKS..Terrible. Tasted like spolied cheese and it had very very strong flavour plus soft texture. I guess those who loves it reali loves cheeses. Haha..I love everything except this...But it was fun...!!!

New Update

Hey there ppl. Few days didnt update blog di. So update a little le. Haha..These few days things ran normally actually. Studied like normal, enjoyed my day. Especially yesterday. Haha..Went to celebrate Jeremy's 21st bday. Haha..he was so damn crazy la..Haha..The celebration was crazy adn fun. Haha...Duno since wen all JPD students became the 'Mui Yan' di lo. Hehe..Pity Siew Yeek. But fun though.

JPD Coursenite 2009

Jeremy Se Chee Heeeeee!

KangKang n Me

WahPeng, Me, Catherine, Kehlen

LaiMei, MeiXin, KarHau, Me

Me, MunYan, LeongChuan. PeiRui

Susan, Me, ChunLi, KehLen

ZhuWei, Me, HengYue

Petrina, SiewFen, AhChai, Me

KehLen, William, Me

PeiRui, MunYan, Me

Wiiliam and I

Siew Fen, Me, KehLen

2 days ago, which was on Saturday, JPD first year students had our first course nite. At first I was hesitating whether going or not. But in the end I went. I never regret goin because it was fun. Ok let me share wif u all the progress of it. Since I just jogged and damn hot to go bathe. Haha. Ok...the coursenite reali a stress to everyone from JPD in the beginning. We had to plan out the performance. Em..there were 4 performances from first year. Spanish dance, singing, drama and also fashio show. Firstly, the dancing. Haha. I never expect guys to join at first but 3 of them did and this dance was splendid. Too bad I didn't take any video. If not should upload it here. Then the singing. A lot songs were sang but then the most crazy and captured my attention was William n Kar Hau. That song was from Miriam and they sang till damn emo lo. Haha..couldn't stop laughing. Then Kok Hau also not bad. Walaueh..the voice like JJ oni. Haha..damn geng lo. Then the fashio show. Em..no nid say the all models are sexy, and pretty girls. The theme of fashio show was recycling items. Very 'chun' one. Haha. Then drama..my performance. I act as Pikachu lo. The drama was bout fairy tale. And I was the Pikachu, in skirt that day. No costume. Imagine. Haha..wen my turn was up, I yelled..Pika-Pikapi-Pikachu..then the seniors were like laughing down there, so embarrassing. Sob2..paiseh le..Haha..but it was fun. I enjoyed. I went ot bf hse after that. More enjoy.

I got no mood to do things

Em duno y I like no mood to do anything le. After yesterday, today I like got no mood to do things. I like bored and dun bother much bout things happening. Em...y leh? Y like this? No one can hep or answer this besides myself. I nid to start my studies asap. I've stated to study but duno y like no boost like I used to be. Haiz. Mayb I too noti di. Lazy. Haiz...Ish Ish...NO NO..I MUST WORK HARD! I CAN DO IT!

I realize that I need Him!

I've came bck from bf's hse. Weekend wif him was so sweet. Its been a while since we last met. And I couldn't express how much I miss him and got so excited when get to see him on Friday then yest till today. But then today he sent me bck even earlier than b4 this. I got so down. And never talk much wen he sent me bck. So down ma. But then reach KT I realize that I no longer down. But then I felt missing him and wanted to c him talk to him. But too bad. Nid to wait til cming weekend. I wil ganbateh for exam..and also work hard...I cant wait to meet up...

Busy

Sorry everyone for the late update of my blog. Haha..Came bck to KL was so busy with assignments lab reports and also the course nite cming. Which is this Friday. Everyday need to go down for practise and rehearsal. Tiring. Till no time for own revision and work and even rest. Sob2..But I enjoy the hectic life..Not so boring and train myself to handle things properly!

Exam nxt month

Oh its already march and next month is exam. Y am I putting so much stress to myself? I don't know why. Just seems like I wan to do well since last exam I did badly. Haiz. This sem I hope got sm improvement. And perhaps I think this way stress up adi. Hope I can relax a little. Plus today just came bck from Ipoh. I miss home alot. Till cried just now. I hope I can be stronger, tougher like I used to be last time. I need my strength again. But...How am I going to do it??I heard ppl always say try relax urself, dun push urself, dun stress. But, I just like cant do it. Things just so wrong wif me. I goin crazy if continue like this. God..help me...Give me strength!

Goin bck to KL soon

i'm in Ipoh soon for my weekend holiday will be goin bck to KL soon..time reali flies..Dun feel like goin bck. Exam soon. Haiz. Hope can do well this time. =) I noe alot ppl giving me support. I won let them down. I enjoy my holiday in Ipoh..so fun. Sure miss it. Bro having camp. Ish...Without him like bored at home..coz no one to bully and chat with.Tues dun cm so fast le...

I nid to tolerate

Horsie

The park from top

Playground

Nice??

I nid to tolerate him. Love btwn two people nid toleration and understanding. Since I fail to b an understanding gf, I should try to tolerate and try b more understanding. I wil try my best to do that. I must! well, I wanna continue writing. Coz whatever I wrote bf might read to get himself updated. Haha. Well today had Microbiology lab. Deal wif bacteria...Wahaha. Sound dangerous?Yes might be right? Em today we prepared our slides from the colonies of bacteia and fungus. And..the worst part was..Ish..that damn E.coli culture. We were given an ungrown sample. So wonder the slides we prepared[3 times] were empty slides and we couldnt observe anything. Damn it. haha..in the end, we compared the sample wif other groups...our...EMPTY!!!!Wasted our time. Em..this Friday goin bck Ipoh without him. And I reali excited. But sad also..that I cant c him again. Actually might hav chance to c him nxt monday but since no more ticket, I got no choice but to cm bck tuesday morning. So..I goin bck myself, cant c him anymore..sob2..I miss him...Today no mood to study either. Got no idea y. Haha..and I went jogging b4 the rain falls. Hehe..and sweat alot felt so nice. Ko even called ask me wat's wrong sudd no mood study. Hehe. But I felt so happy so many ppl care over me. Ko..frens and I noe bf also. I manage to take a few pics of Titiwangsa Lake.

Now oni I realize

Last weekend I was a total terrible gf. Haha. I reali bad gf. Em..I dunwan mention wat happened but I now believe that I'm a terrible person. I'm so selfish. Reali selfish. Haiz. I dunno y I like that. I had a little prob wif bf and it was me giving the prob. Haiz. Like I said b4 I duno wat I want. Haiz. Crazy me. But then after ko told me bout the condition of working at site, I began to und the situation there. One side I began to get more worried over bf and the other side I und his situation as a new trainee there. Its stressful and tiring to him. I should und his situation and never make him more stressful and not hapi. I noe I'm very wrong this time. Luckily ko told me bout site. Now I realize how silly I was to misjudge my bf. I'm so sori...I'm realli sori. Hope u can forgive me.Now feel like continue writing. Today's mood is not so good. I cant explain how I feel. Many things happened and I cant handle it weel. Useless le me. I tried to control emotions and try to do well. But everything will be useless once its love matter. Haiz. I wil go lost once face prob wif bf. But I still love him a lot...