Explorace

Wow I joined explorace under college lo. Haha. Now damn damn tired lo. Haha.But it was reali fun. There were 20 groups, all enter first phase. First phase organised at Titiwangsa lake. My group name is Shin Chan. Cute? WAHAHAHA. Then our group got no 4 in the first phase and we were able to get into 2nd phase lo. The first task given was, cleaning the horse stable. Worst. A lot of ..... u noe wat. Smelly and damn cham le we nid to do it to get clue for the next check point. But that was better we oni ate coffee bean curd. Haha..Ivy was like goin to vomit. But perhaps we were damn hungry William n i finished it in 1 minute. Haha. The later our tasks were like, seperating diff beans, find tasks hiden, and even paddle boat to the other side of lake to fill water and cm bck. We even had to catch a fish wif tissue. Haha. Fun. There were questions asked too. One of it was.."Apakah gajah yang paling panjang?" N the answer we gave..Batu Gajah. Truth is, gajah yang beratur. Silly. Then the 2nd phase was in kl area. Wow. that was reali crazy. First we got down at Titiwangsa monorail then we nid to find out so called 'pengiring'. The purpose of him? Nah we just babysit him. He couldnt run fast and we nid to take care of him, bring him to every check point. haha. But we couldnt find him at first. So we were late lo. Damn late. So we were last. Em..I dunwan mention the 2nd phase di. It was silly. Tasks include, selling mineral water, perform infront of ppl..haha..but we cheated for both. We buy the water ourselves, then we never perform but got the score from ppl without performing. But in the end we got souvenier. Fun le,..tired...

What I want?

I duno what I want from him. Haiz. Yest I sudd told him that I dunwan to contact his this weekend. I actually don't want to say it but I got idea why I got the courage to say it. I actually missing him looking forward to weekend hopefully can spend more time for each other even though we can't meet. But then, yest after talking to him I felt a little bad that he like duno anything bout me this few days alot happened but I never get to tell him. Reason? Coz we rarely contact at nite. Timing not rite. So I duno think this weekend will b any difference. I think might even worse. So I dunwan get myself hurt or sad waiting for his reply.Y not just dun contact. haha. Sound so siu hei rite? But that's me. I am like that. I very not reasonable not understanding..Haiz...

Exciting n Mayb tiring weekend cming!

This sat will be my 2nd explorace in my life. B4 this I joined explorace in Matriks. I wonder this one is as challengin as b4, and as tired as b4. Just cant wait. Haha..n this weekend will be an enjoyable weekend. Going out wif ko. Then will c kai ma. Haha...sure enjoy! Oh today had a jog for half an hour. Then went to try the awesome gym-like equipments at Titiwangsa lake. So fun...

Busy Days To Come

After exam nth is more important than having all assignments and lab reports done. This whole week is terrifying. There are Micrbo and Biochem lab, plus PPM lab and then ASM assignment and Public speaking outline nid to be prepared. Its so crazy. Luckily I've done the outline and PPM lab. Now left Microb and Biochem lab. The ASM is finishing soon. Haiz. Things of coz not as smooth as I thought. Groupmate...haiz...gives me headache also. But stil its better than my fren'd groupmate. Em. Its better not for me to complain le. Coz there might be times where I'm not a group teammate. Haha...But this week things ok for me. Studies haven pick up bck mainly bcoz of works to do. Haiz. Weekend will study hard. Haha...last weekend was so fun. I was with bf. I reached there after exam and then cooked him dinner..It was so sweet. I was waiting for him like a wife did and the moment he came bck I was so happy. Haha..then last sat I went for hair cut. Til damn short and bf came bck he kept laughing at me. Gave me new nick name..but then he said its nice on me. Haha. The nxt day...sunday we went for our date after so long. we went for Valkyrie. Em, average movie. But wat I enjoyed most was spending time wif him. Just cherish it. I was emotional that day. Kept asking him is he willing not seeing me for 2 weeks? But now..i will ask him...are u willing not seeing me for 3 weeks??? Oh mainly bcoz I attending coursenite and cming weekend n next week I'll not see him. Just feel very missing and not willing not seeing him...

Cut Hair di..Plus Some Pictures

My hse during new year

The Front door

Nice?

My new hair..
Oh My God rite? Short? Yea short. I stunned wif my courage to cut this short..I wonder how bf reacts to it...haha..guess he might say..OMG!

Finally..it ended

Exam ended..wakaka..SOOOOOOOO HAAAAPPPPYYYYY!

Tired!

Yesterday slept late. I was on bed around 10smth and that was it. I kept turning on bed. It was hot and I kept sweating. Plus I couldn't sleep. Wen I closed my eyes trying to sleep, the next moment was I felt there was smth in my body, kept waking me up. Felt smth running inside me. I worried that I couldn't sleep so I called him up. He already slept coz he's working today. Felt bad also. But after listening to him, I started yawning. It was almost 3am when I slept. But then his voice was calming, I slept after talking to him.Thks. I hope Biochem and Microb ok later!.....Haha...but then the outcome....was terrible....Biochem I think like goin to fail le....Sob2....haiz..But I did my best di. Although alot that I reali don't know, but I tried my best to answer everything, shoot. Dun care di. At least I tried rather than handing empty paper. I wil b fine!

Friday Faster Come Pls...

Today is already Wednesday. Time passes very fast. I cant wait for exam to end actually. Later I'll be going for Genetic paper. In the afternoon will be Food Science. I hope what I read wil come out and hopefully it will not go too complicated or confusing. Haiz. I actually feel a little nervous for tomorrow's paper. Biochem and Microbiology. Hopefully can do it. I actually know what I read. Just that I dunno can answer the questions or not. Hopefully can. The Friday will come. The last paper is Pricipal Food Preparation. That paper appears to b simple but actually I'm sure its not easy. Nid to look at past year. I must ganbateh! Lai Peng you can do it!!!! Yes you can!!!! An hour ago I just finished my last paper for today. Em..to be honest there are 2 questions I shoot it because I didnt memorize the bacteria's name. Derr..U think its easy to remember wat bacteria responsible for wat food? I got no brain to remember that. Haha..=P Hopefully those I answered will cover the tembak answers I choose. Haha..Well day pass by so fast. Now nid to focus on Biochem and Microb 2ml. Hopefully its easy le. But I think won kua. But I can do it!!!! Sure can!

Brand New Day

Today is Tuesday, a brand new day after exam started yesterday. Today not having any paper. This is reali good. For I can use all the time to focus on Genetics, ASM aka Food Science and biochem for Thurs. I reali hope I can do better this sem. Well perhaps I take it too seriously til I become so damn nervous and sad if I didn't do well. Relax..Chill la. Haha..=) Rosey said the right thing- Dun worry just be hapi and focus on cming one. I will try by best for all paper. So that I won feel regret..=) GANBATEH LAIPENG...Well..now wanna continue writing my post le. Em..Today mood is ok. Calm..and then missing him le. I understand that he needs to work from Mon til Sat and 8a.m til 7p.m. I heard that felt so heartache. I worry that he don't get enuf rest and sick in the end. Need to travel here to Kepong everyday and work til so late somemore. I get more worry over him. Haiz. I hope he can do it.

Moody

Well today exam just started and its = moody mood. Haha..Felt I did badly for this paper. But then I was ok la. Today wat I miss the most is bf. He started working and I was happy for him. But then sad for myself. Coz today..we never talk much and didnt message much. Then he actually promised me to call but then..in the end we talk less then 5 minutes. I waited so long for him, whole day, I was not so in the mood coz of exam. Wanna tell him how I feel but then I got no chance at all. He nid to work I understand. But wat I need is 10 minutes. Wonder I can stand so long- 3 months without him..

The Different Me

Well, just now I read a fren's blog. In the post, she said she felt like crying and she's not doin good there. I dun reali noe the real situation but then I reali worry for her. I hope to c her ASAP. Miss her and last time anything we two like best pal. Go class together stdy together and we always guide each other in studies and very care for each other. But then now we r seperated. I got no idea how she is right now. Worry. I used to be like her. I always cry after I enter Uni. but then, after so many things and guidance from bf and ko, I feel like getting better and studies also ok. But I never think how will it be. I just set myself this mind- Do My Best Will B Ok. So I'll just do watever I can without thinking wat the effects are. I hope Yean will be fine too. Just worry

Surprising Nite

My High Calorie Zinger

Yummy

Necklace

Froggie

Hot air ballon

Yesterday was so surprising. Hehe. I got 2 presents from bf. And it was so sweet of him to sudd of the lights and then wen I turned around I saw the first present- a glow in the dark keychain. Froggie! So cute. I cant stop smiling. Haha..then I went to study and then, the 2nd surprise came. wen I was studying half way he came over frm behind, started doin magic. Mime I think. Like wan put a neclace on my neck. Then, wen I continue studying, he reali put a neclace ony my neck. So surprised. Thks..I love u

Exam soon!

Oh exam soon. I think my study progress ok so far. Hope ok le! 2ml will see him again. Yes!

Long Weekend to Come

Well, few days din write post di. Feel like writing smth. Em.. Past few days I was very stressed and at the same time felt empty, without my soul. Its been a week plus I last saw bf. Well it is not long. Not as long as last time where we didnt get to c for more than a month. But somehow I feel so missing him. Life is so hard to understand rite? Wen we are near to ppl we love we tend to wanting to c them as much as possible and for me, I will go emotional if I din manage to c him. And wen we r far, we never feel like breaking down and just go on wif our lives. I never cry wen I was in Malacca studying. That time I was happy in matrix. wif my roommates and my close Ipoh frens. Now, all of them were scattered around malaysia in different Uni. Haiz. So as my roommates. Tats y I'm lonely here in KL. The oni one that I can count on is bf and now I can count on my koko also. Both of them help me a lot when I nid company and support. Bf always giv undying supports, concern and love. Koko giv me advice and helped me to c things differently. This weekend it a long weekend for sure. Duno do wat le. Haiz. Study study study. Haiz...Well..Valentine but I won get to celebrate lo. Haiz. Wat a bad weekend. Haiz. Nxt week exam, I duno how to go on. Haha..but I think I will be fine...

I Had A Wonderful Evening

My bday present from ko

Ice skating

Kimpachi menu

The japanese steambot

My Unagi rice

Salmon

Steambot dishes

My ko

Yesterday was so damn enjoyable le ppl. Haha.After finished studying, I went out wif Rosey jie and Michael ko. We went for movie at Summit for InkHeart. Em that movie not bad. Then, we all went to play at Arcade. Em, I played that drum game again. With ah ko. Ish, he won me over. Ish. And that was his first time playing it. Ahhhh!!!! Then went play table hockey wif Rosey jie. And..AHH...The thing hit my finger. Bruised di le today. Hehe..Then later get to know another koko..forgotten his name lo. Die lo. Ithink is Yi Chuan. Duno. Hehe..He treated us Sushi at Kimpachi. Yummy. Reali. Ordered alot of things, got salmon, then one of my favourite Japanese dishes- Unagi..wif rice, then got patato salad, a set of japanese steambot, tendon, japanese pork chop, little octopus, and a set of japanese fished fillet. Emmm..Tasty! First time had meal there. I mean..in a Japanese restaurant. WAHAHA. Then, we went to Sunway Pyramid. For bowling. YC ko treat wo. He got very excited actuali. Then they called another fren- Yoon Chuan I think. Haha.. Forget names again. Then b4 he arrive, we 4 of us had Haagen-Dasz's icecream..and..ppl we spent 73++ for icecream oni. Shocking le. And YC ko treated us again. He like crazy di. So sked!. Haha..then went bowling. Me..at first was highest, then went to last place. Sob2..Haha..Then Yoon Chuan ko taught me the rite concept, then the 3rd game, I was first. Haha..so Happy. yea, b4 I forget, I got a present from Michael ko...Espirit watch. Nice. Oh ko so sayang me le. I must not let hm down again le this sem...I enjoyed so much...

OOOOO...So Nice!!!

The front view..Nice??

The 'balcony'

Small lane from outside to inside

English style houses

OOOOO...So nice le the houses yesterday. I went to cousin's fren's hse for CNY open day and this time, the place was at Damansara. It's really beautiful,ppl. Haha. The houses are like those western style, wif 3 storries and then, nearby there are swimming pool, squash center and sauna. Just because it was at nite, I didn't manage to take any pic of the latter places. Ish. But seriously it was beautiful and I was stunned by the breathtaking atmosphere. It was as if in a holiday resort. Damn nice le. Especially those houses facing the pool. More classical and English style, and holiday resort like wif the short palm trees besides them. I was so happy looking at the houses. And at the same time knew a new fren, Emily. The host,s daughter. Young and innocent and I felt happy to share stories wif her, from studies to relationship. And I actually enjoyed yesterday's dinner..I mean after Emily started talking to me!!!..So enjoy the pics.!

I'm Happy Back

Oh..I fell so happy le. That bf ok back. Yesterday both of us were like not happy and didnt talk much to each other. Today we both gt bck together. Ok bck. We said sori to each other and now we r bck to normal. This mornin we both were will in bad mood. I was tired and nid to study. Then he was not in mood. Even I called him he was like no mood to talk to me. And he kept blaming himself. Over smth. But I explained to him and luckily, he understood and now he accepted the fact that I reali love him and din mean to hurt him, plus wat I said were actually true. Haha. And I'm glad that the misery is over and he's ok di. I myself paid attention in studies today and almost finish what I should read. So relieved. I think I must work even harder nxt weekend b4 exam and after that we can meet up di!I cant wait to c him again..

A Tiring Trip

CNY FOOD!

Emotipills..Are like Jelly Beans

Emotipills Like Psycho Pill Oni Le The Name

At first I thought going to my cousin's place in Puchong during this long weekend without bf is a good step, but now, I'm a little regret of cming here. Mainly because I wasted a lot of my time yesterday nite wen I came over here. I went out at 7smth, n finally reached her hse at 2am. Y? Coz firstly, KL to Puchong took a lot of time. Next, I went to my bro's hse wait for him bathe and ready b4 goin to his boss's CNY open day. By the time he was done it was past 10pm. Haiz. Reached the hse and sat there doing nth, already past 11pm. I was tired and wanted to go home. I thought would reach there earlier. Wasted all the time. Then, bro wanted to eat pulak. Padahal he had frens wif him. And he insisted me to cm along. So, I ate and wen all their frens arrived, they all chat and chat and chat...till past 1.30am. So damn tired. And reached home at 2am. Slept straight away. Couldn't stand it any longer. Haiz. Tis morning never wanted to wake up that early but then no choice. I wasted so much of my time I must ganbateh today. Yesterday the atmospere wif bf almost like went to end of relationship. So sked. I actuali realize its my fault. Read magazine yest, that I shouldn't just look at the things that he annoyed me, but I must think of things that he done for me and why I love him. I realize I'm wrong as well. SORRY Darling

Confused

Yesterday I was so confused wif wat I want. I was confused wif my own thought and feelings. Haiz yesterday yueyi sudd said I was lying to myself that I think my relationship wif bf is good. Actually I told her my relationship wif bf is reali good. We never argue so far, so isn't it good?? But it was bcoz she said bf never gav presents never plan surprise. Mayb she felt its weird for a gf not to get presents from bf on birthday. But then I was ok. Wen she said it I terasa di. And asked bf bout it. Ended up we almost like..em..argue. But never. We just kept messaging til the atmosphere went tight. So I was so scared that I will hurt him tellin him my feelings. He asked me did I wan to break up wif him. I never planned to. I dunwan to seperate from bf. I was confused. First I was ok wif the bday thing then wen yy said it I felt sad and disappointed. Wat I wan and expect from him actuali? i also blur..Baby forgive me..for being uncertain bout my feelings..But I'm certain that I love you and never wan to break wif u...

Last Meeting

Today is rather a special day to me. Yesterday I still dreaming and still sleeping in my emotions. I was still like a child, crying for love and crying over nth. But then, someone woke me up from the dream. He made me understand that if I go on like this, if I go on letting emotions over power me, then I will suffocate bf and made him worry. He made me felt ashamed. I am ashamed that I was so emotional over silly things that if look at others, I'm actually better in the sense that I can meet up wif bf coz although he will work soon, he is still in kl area. Unlike that fren, the gf is in canada and its been months since they last met. When I told him I miss bf til cry non stop, he as if scolding me and that made me woke up, coz he is worse than me. I insaf di lo. Ish. I'm so sori. Darling, sorry that I made u worry alot and if i made u feel suffocating being my bf. So sori. Actuali today is special coz it was last meeting wif bf b4 he comes bck again in a week time. Actualli after he comes bck he will start his training and i think we will meet less, thats y i went emo past few weeks and yesterday. I feel very em seh tak him. Reali missing him but then, wat that fren said is true. I should go on wif my own life and studies. Must not let him worry if I reali love him. And now, I must keep this target. I must go on wif my life go strong again bck. I MUST!!! I WILL DO IT! Today had lunch wif bf at Pizza Hut, and after that went bck to his hse and studied a chapter plus. Then we had long talk on bed. He told me he was angry that I told his fren bout my emo things but not him, and I worried til cried out. But then I felt today was a sweet meeting wif him. Coz i was able to express my love to him. I LOVE YOU JC!

I Had A Sweet Birthday

Yesterday was my birthday. I didnt celebrate wif my family but surprisingly a lot frens and even course mates remembered my bday. They wished and my phone kept getting incoming messages. It was so sweet and I was touched. Last year I didnt manage to celebrate with loved ones and I remember I cried on my birthday. It was silly. That time I was watching 'A Walk To Remember' with my ex roommates in matrix. After watching I kept crying coz it was so touching at te same time I missed my bf coz he wasnt there to celebrate wif me and he wished me earlier coz e would be having exam the day after. So b4 12 he slept di. I cried til 12 he called me. And I felt so happy. This year we managed to be together. We went out lunch together on 2nd. Then he ate ice cream together. Wat I regret most was I didnt take any pic wif him. Ish. Nvm. Its ok. Yea..but b4 tat he wished me directly 12.02 am on my bday. He hugged me after saying that. So happy le. We didnt have cake or get presents but then I feel being able to be wif him on this special day is the biggest present from him. And the presents he gave canno be seen or touched but can oni be felt by me. He gave me his love, concern and support wen I nid his most. That's the greatest present I got this year! Thk u darling...