Getting ready for new Semester

I bought 2 pairs of new shoes for new semester one of it is the black shoe in the picture below. Erm, the skirt is a fitting skirt given by Mrs Chee, my ex-tuition center principal. So I've decided to bring those skirts back to KL for my new semester...

Today I also bought a comfort shoe for training..Erm..sort of comfortable to wear for long walking purpose..=) Likey..Forgive me for the ugly dressing..Haha..that's how I dress at home...over-size shirt with pants..I know I look very messy and untidy..haha..forgive me!

Another boots for both my mum and me..We have the same shoe size so we plan to share this boots together! =)

Emotional...stress

I left a little of my notes to study. But then there are a whole bunch of things to read. Those Clinical Practice Guidelines and my Food Checklists are not out yet! Left two week to do, can I make it?? I don't know...

Feel so lonely...nobody really knows me well and care for how I feel and how I am doing...

I need strength and support to move on...I feel so moody and stressed up...

Where are the peoples that used to support me have gone to? I gave all I can and support and love to other people who needs it, but who loves me? Sobz..

I wish there is one person who can say, " Come here, I'm with you...No worry..You can do this...You can..."...

='(

Alone

Without baby boy I feel so alone..lonely. Study makes me stress and moody but baby boy is too busy to care about me...I feel so sad when my email, message and FB message are not replied at all...I don't know what is he doing and going through. I gave my support and care for him to go through all the hard times he is facing now..but he never bothered to care and ask about how I am lately...feeling of neglected is really terrible...

Terrible....

Where r u?

='(

AIDS

I'm currently doing my revision on AIDS (Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome). While reading, I personally beginning to have mixed feelings about this disease. When I was younger, I heard many comments by the elder generations about this disease." Yerrr.. 'Ai Je Bing'! Surely have multiple partners and always visit prostitute". People are actually having misconception on what AIDS really is. Now that I'm studying about this, I feel pity for those having the disease. Firstly is that, there's no cure at all for this disease, only prevention. Secondly, people with this disease are always looked down upon as, having multiple sexual partners that's why they get AIDS.

However, the pure fact about this disease is..well, of course it's related to sex..as unprotected sex is ONE of the WAY OF TRANSMISSION of Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV). So those having multiple partner with unprotected sex, the risk of transmission of the HIV virus increases. The virus can also be transmitted to another person through blood, semen, vaginal fluid, breast milk and other fluids with blood.

What AIDS really is? It's not a sexual disease, just to clear things up. It's a disease due to breakdown of immune system and causing multiple infections and opportunistic infections. Infections causes body system to be affected, and slowly cause malabsorption of nutrients from food. When nutrients are not sufficient, immune system further weaken and infections will continue to occur.

The first 1 to 2 decades of life are not really obvious for HIV carrier as the symptoms are not so obvious. There are 4 stages in AIDS:

1) Acute HIV Infection (4-7 weeks): Infections are short and symptoms are flu-like, immune system reacts to HIV virus and antibody produced to protect body from infection. A -ve HIV result when HIV test are done at this stage.

2) Asymptomatic Chronic HIV Infection (months to years): No symptoms, HIV level drop low but still detectable

3) Symptomatic HIV Infection: Over-time, immune system will slowly weaken as it becomes too tired fighting HIV virus all these while, HIV virus also becomes mutant and pathogenic and attacks antibody. Body cannot replace the antibody fast enough results in decrease immune system function = increase infection risk (opportunity infection)

4) AIDS @ Advanced HIV: Immune system destroyed with antibody <14% in body.

From the readings, this makes me so fear for this disease. I think people should put down their 'color glasses' and try to support those with HIV or AIDS because some of them, don't really want to be carrying the disease. Some got it from their mother (innocent right?). Some get from accident or due to small cut or wound and exposed to blood with HIV without notice...It's just so pitiful..

God bless these people, help them to be strong to withstand the disease!

Family Dinner

My semester break is long enough for me to spend maximum time with my family. I love my family...all of them because without them, there will never be Leong Lai Peng. There will never be ME!. My family is the one that shapes me to who I am today. i'm proud to say that without my parents, there won't be me. In the past, I did many wrong things and my mother wanted to send me to the officers for me to face the legal act. Due to love, I was given a chance to change and be better and I am now. I will never forget what happened back then..I must thank my mum and dad for protecting me by being stern and firm with their parenting skill... If they go easy on me and spoil me, then I might ended up being in jail already..TQ Mie, TQ Ba

My brother! Younger not elder brother k? Hehe... Closest to me among my siblings.

My mum! She's really a tough lady and without her, I will never be able to back to the right path!

I will try my best to be better person! Will not make my parents worry!

Besties Again!

Yohoo! Outing with besties was a success! And we met for few hours! Though short but we had great time talking and laughing! We've known for so many years. Especially Wai Leng and Jyn Ling, we have known for 11years. Chia Wen a little shorter. But friendship is not measured by how long we've known but how well we can get along and the close relationship that is shared with sincerity, love and caring for each other. I do cherish our friendship. U all have been with me to listen to my troubles and always shared problems with me! I love u girls! See u all again soon!

Introducing two of my besties! Wai Leng & Chia Wen! Owh...Jyn Ling is the Camera-Girl!

Now, introducing the July birthday girl. Haiz..So sorry for the delay of your birthday celebration. Sorry girl! Hope u enjoyed the cakes and lunch!

Next is Ms. Chia Wen. She'll be moving to Penang soon. Will surely miss her lots..='(

Now, this is ME! With the DIY shirt I made last week! I find this so cute! Besties agreed that this shirt is cute too!

Seeing me holding the Secret Recipe menu holder, it means we were at SR!! Cakes time!!! Yay!

Jyn Ling's Espresso Cheese! Yummy! I think the Espresso fragrant is just too good! If u wanna get the good calories and also stand the night out to study, this is a good option! Snack and coffee together!

My Hazel Cheese. The hazelnuts are just too delicious! Provides me with omega-3 and 6!

Miss Ngeaw @ Meow's Green Tea Cheese! It's rich with green tea which is a good antioxidant! Good choice girl! U can stay 18 like u always said! Lol

Chia Wen's favourite Banana Chocolate cake! OMG! It's huge! Banana is rich is potassium which can help to maintain ur blood pressure at the normal range! Chocolate can makes u happy too! Wise choice again!

Wish to meet u girls again! So do comment below to arrange the outing again b4 i go bck KL next months k? Love u girls!

Hate

I HATE ACNE! I HATE PIMPLES! ARGGHHH! CAN'T YOU JUST GO AWAY?!

Love myself

I know i've been depressed about so many things and just now I went to cheer myself up by getting a hair-cut, wash and temporary straightening to make my hair looks nicer. Yea..indeed the effect made me feel better!

^_^

Bright days ahead LLP, don't give up!

Stress

Life is so stressful right now...Haiz...I feel alone and want people to care about me. I want attention and a good listener. Sometimes I just cannot control me emotions anymore. And the anger just burst out! Haiz..

Leong Lai Peng...

Why? Why so 'chung dung'? Why release ur anger and stress on ur loved one?

Haiz...bad temper bad habit..out out out from me! Plz...

Pampering my hair

Life everyday is full of stress and weather itself is hot and depressing me..My skin and hair turning more dull as I've been really busy with studies and work. Stress coupled with lack of attention towards my skin and hair made my appearance turned to a massive terrible state..UGLY and DULL! Lolz.. Depressing!

Today I take a short break to pamper my hair a little. My hair is a little longer now than my previous short hair. The curls are getting less obvious = dull and messy hair if I do not apply hair moisturizer. Haiz.. My hair mask is made by simple ingredients; olive oil and coconut milk. Simple remedy but it really helps to make hair stronger and shinny. Previously I used this hair mask quite frequent and my hair was at its best state that time..

Now I must take a break from work and pamper myself. When my hair is healthy, my physical appearance will improve, so confidence higher and I will be much better and happy to face study again! Yay

Simply mix appropriate amount of coconut milk with 2-3 teaspoons of olive oil. Mix evenly and apply the hair mask carefully. Believe me, the mask is LIQUID so it will get pretty messy if u don't apply on ur hair properly. And I will tie my hair to a little bun after apply the mask and cover my hair with a shower cap!

Taadaa! This is how I look after putting on the shower cap..[Maybe some of you are wondering how do I look with shower cap..=D]

Happy reading, trying, pampering and take good care

Much loves,

Cheryl

( I think this name is nice with my chinese name. What do u think?!)

Reading

I've got this book from Mrs Chee, my ex-tuition center principal. It's written by Michelle Looi, a friend of Mrs Chee. She's a cancer survivor. The purpose of selling this book is for charity purpose and also a way for Michelle to share her experience and feelings throughout her battle with her cancer. It includes spiritual approach and also some methods to combat the disease. So I bought this book for RM20.00 and read 2-3 chapters already. Slow reading but I think it's a very meaningful book as it talks about aspects of believing in God and also opening up her heart to accept the disease and also appreciate her time and people she loves. She talks about forgiving and loving others and loving oneself and this can actually make a person happier and life more worthwhile...

Very meaningful book. I hope this book can give me an idea on how to help those cancer patients during my clinical practice next month. Just hope that I can manage it!

Wanna make my own shirt

I suddenly have a feeling to make my own shirt just like Bubbi.. I like this bow tie shirt she made on her own.. Just so coincidence I'm having a black shirt and I wanna a

ccessorize it with cute fabrics to make it cuter! I hope my project will be successful!! Yay

So here's my product after 2-3 hours of selecting fabrics and tugging the bow to desired size and sewing them onto my shirt! Lolz... Instead of using scoop neck shirt, I used a fitted shirt with puffy shoulder. I picked checkers cloth for my bow and I really like the combination of the bows with my black shirt..

Gonna show my baby boy my shirt tonight! Yay!

Stationary and Beauty Haul

Today went out with besty Jyn Ling..yay! And we purchased some products and stuff that we wanted. This girl wanted to buy a pair of shoes but currently Jusco is not having great promotions so she gave up her wish.. But for me I manage to buy some items that I really need this month.. As I said before that study is in the mood, so I purchased some stationery like pens, highlighters and sticky flags for noting chapters in my note book

Been really stress lately with work and my studies so can imagine what happened to my skin. Lolz...breaking out like hell especially at my temple and jawline.. Terrible.. Treating it making my skin dry as well.. So many dead skin cells. Wanna remove it but using ordinary scrub can be very harsh on my skin. I searched online and found that using tool like facial cleansing pad and AHA (alpha hydroxy acid) and BHA (beta hydroxy acid) product can help to remove dead skin cells more effectively than ordinary scrub. So I purchased a cheap facial cleansing pad from Jusco (RM2.90). This little tool can help to effectively clean ur face and I've tested it out just now. It's very gentle and after rinsing, I can feel skin so much softer...^_^

I also bought this cheap AHA/BHA cleanser by Hada Labo. Well, Cetaphil working well and gentle but since that lately been having a lot dead skin cells, and I don't want to hurt my skin by using harsh scrub, I think this can help my skin out. This cleanser is claimed to be able to clean ur skin from dead skin cells and reveal soft skin like hard boiled egg (tamago). And I like it. I used it with the cleansing pad just now, and skin really soft after rinsing...Pimples are less red too! =) Cost bout RM16 for 50g and I use just a little of it so I guess it's cost effective as it's not expensive and works. But still I need to put a little time to test this for longer time..

Skin happy happy!

This video kinda helpful...Happy watching

Tired and needed a good rest

My holiday left about a month now and I have so much more to read up.. Everything has to be covered and if possible mastering all the skills and theories that I've learnt from first year till third year. Haiz..I'm so afraid that I cannot make it in time..

Kind of regretted my decision to work so long and every time I finished working during the day, at night will be really tired to open up my notes to study. Last month was worse whereby every wednesday and thursday I still have to teach tuition classes. Imagine my tiredness that two days.. Although earning pocket money is good but I have sacrificed my time to study...

Sad thing..=( Can u see how much things to study? Look at the pile of notes!

Teaching tuition is not as easy as I imagined. Here's the notes for classes that I'm gonna teach. Good thing is this month I'm not teaching two days but only one day. I really can't take so many things and neglect my study again. Everybody needs help from me, who going to help me with my study? NO ONE!!! Only myself...so people...everyone, pls let me go k??? Tired already sacrificing for u all...and I loss all my precious time for study. See the notes? It's all empty without answers and I have to do all on my own..Time? My own time again so solve all the maths questions..haiz...terrible..

The thing that make me feel so bad is that everybody make me feel like I'm wrong for not helping them. My boss's wife make it sound so terrible that I wasn't there. Haiz...what do they want me to do actually???

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XOXO

Taking care of my health

I used to drink Scott's Emulsion but out of the sudden someone suggested me to take fish or cod liver oil instead as these oils are pure liver oil unlike Scott's Emulsion which are not purely 100% fish liver oil.

So, I went to those Chinese Med Shop and purchased a bag of fish liver oil. Well, it's a product from China, but my family has been trusting and dealing with this shop for a long long time and since the owner convinced me that the fish liver oil from China is OK and not having any problem, I purchased it for a try to see if it's good or not. It's not expensive -RM9.50 per 500 capsules. Cheap actually...! Haha

Well many benefits of fish liver oil and I hope it can improve my health in long run!

Stressful time ahead

Life still have to move on, to a more depressing month ahead. I'd received an email from my course mate saying that preparations needed for the coming new semester. Well, unlike our catering posting b4 this, clinical training is something more serious and definitely needed more effort and attention in order to get everything smoothly during training..

Unfortunately, I've been too focusing with my part-time job and tuition classes at night and sort of neglected my study recently. After reading the email I began to notice that I've been left behind for so long...Yea, I'm left out behind..I can't catch up with the things that I need to prepare. Left another month to new semester and, I still now blogging instead of studying...Haiz..Useless me

My baby boy been emotional lately and just recovered from his emotional state. He's still not in the mood to care much over what am I facing and I kinda depressed as well. But nothing can be done about it actually. If he doesn't care much I can't do anything also..Sad right? Haha...but I can't change anything about this! I must learn to love myself more...if other ppl doesn't care or love me, I still can love myself..and I must learn to protect myself more, and not letting ppl to hurt me anymore...especially those I love sincerely...

Today I made my love promise me will not neglect me no matter what. Even if he's not in the mood to talk, at least inform me, but not just neglect me and hide things from me...and this actually made me feeling so so bad the past few days...as nothing I can do to make him feel better and worse, he's not telling me how he is feeling exactly..depressing right? But nobody can understand this feeling that I ALWAYS feel...sometimes is really san fu and painful...

If you love me, then promise don't let me worry and sad anymore if can...if can, don't let me feel so bad anymore....will you baby?

I feel that I'm very alike with Kae-In in the Korean series I'm currently watching- Personal Taste, she sacrifice a lot and think about other people more than herself. She cares more about other people's feelings instead of her own, and in the end, she got hurt so many times...Haha..like me, care so much for other people and forget myself...=(

Haiz..got to continue work....

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Hope can go through this without him...

Korean Drama Madness

Been watching Personal Taste- a Korean series. I like this series because it's a very funny series and another reason is that the actor and actress are so cute. Throughout the whole series there were alot funny scenes and they are really cute couple...hehe..=) make me think of my baby boy!

Updated skin routine

My previous posts mentioned that I had terrible skin with many breakouts and scars. It was super depressing and I switched my skin care routine to something else to calm the breakouts. Like for example I cleanser using oatmeal every morning to help reduce the amount of chemicals on my face from ordinary cleanser. And it really calmed the skin down as it does not have lots chemicals but just oats! =) Gentle enough for my skin and hydrates it.

As for night time, I cleanse using Cetaphil gentle skin cleanser. Well, put aside already my other cleansers. All of them were not as good as this baby here! =) Cetaphil cleanser is so so so gentle, perfect for all skin types and problem skin like acne and eczema. Now using this for about two weeks already and so far so good as it doesn't irritate my skin and pimples at all but somehow calmed it down. Skin slowly improving now.! Yeah! It's totally different from other cleansers I used b4 this as it doesn't clog pores, mild, hydrating, and does not foam up. Which in other words it cleanses the skin without striping the moisture from the skin, so skin is supple and hydrated after wash!

Babies that improved my skin condition lately: Oxy Blemish Control Moisturizer, Simple's Soothing Toner, Cetaphil Moisturizing Lotion. Oxy 10, and Cetaphil Cleanser

Next baby here is the cetaphil moisturizing lotion which I use it as my daily moisturizer already. It's very light and runny (which means more water than oil in it). It's also not comedogenic (will not clog pores = won't cause breakouts). Give ***** to it.. The very first time I used this was terrible as I apply the normal amount that I use, and it cause my skin so oily. It's over moisturizing my skin and making it so oily and I broke out. Then, I stopped using it and slowly adjusted the amount to half of the normal amount I used, and surprisingly, it absorb so quickly and not oily at all...=) Makes my skin so soft and hydrated all day..I couldn't believe it. After that day, my skin started to improve and I can see it's glowing, and not because of oil, but because my skin is so moisturized after using this! Yay! Found something that works so well now..Happy!

Owh, skin happy I'm happy too! I know I spent alot on products but all is because I can't find something that can stick to my skin long enough and doesn't give me significant results..but I do hope that something simple and gentle like what I'm using now can make me stick to it forever! Hopefully!

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I wanna go OUT

My life now is super dull without my friends and baby boy. I miss all of them. Though with my family, everyday my routine is the same which makes my day dull and boring. Nowadays since I've started to help out with Maths tuition at wijaya, my wed and thurs are even more tiring and boring. Haiz..I got to teach for whole July. What a pathetic month. I got no own time for wed and thurs because I got to work during the day and the few hours b4 tuition classes I got routine job to do at home everyday...sobz..

Wat a tiring day and boring life here without baby boy. Wish he's here to bring me out...Miss u my love

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XOXO

How lucky am I

Do you know how a person is considered lucky?

A person is lucky to be in love

A person is lucky to be able to love someone

A person is even luckier to have some who loves him @ her

A person is the luckiest when he @ she is loved by the person he @ she loves..

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How lucky am I to be in love with this guy

How lucky am I to

be loved by this very particular special guy

Where am I to find someone who loves me, protects me, care for me and willing to spend the rest of his life with me?

What can I ask more when this guy willing to vow to be with me forever, despite having to face all my weaknesses?

So, am I the luckiest person to have him?

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Yea, I am the luckiest girl on earth to have Lee Jian Choong in my life...I love ya baby..Muacks..

Missing you greatly baby..='(